Self Deception

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  1. Self deception was my best friend. If I had only listened to my body, my dreams and even my husband I likely would have uncovered the betrayals in my marriage years ago. My husband would tell me all the crazy things the guys he worked with did but really he was confessing and asking for help because he was doing all the same things. My body told me because I was sick, stressed and depressed. But Xanax and blaming it on the kids and caring for my sick mother in law let me deflect from the truth.

    It is truly amazing the self preservation mode our minds go into when we deny what our bodies are trying to tell us. I didn’t want problems in my marriage, I didn’t want my husband to be an addict and s cheat so I simply ignored every sign that was there and reassigned the blame of the stress.

    Now I don’t know how to trust my intuition because I’m still so messed up from dealing with discovery of his betrayals. Of course my body, mind and heart tell me to flee and get away from him because he is the source of my pain. Something else keeps me here, commitment a vow, fear… I don’t know I can’t explain it.

  2. rgonaut says:

    Self deception, avoid the truth….Sometimes it’s a great tool to enable you to do something that seems impossible, but there’s a price to pay eventually I think.

  3. All the signs were there…so I asked him if he was having an affair…I asked HIM. Naturally he said no…every time I asked. One night I sat bolt upright out of a sound sleep thinking, OMG he’s having an affair!! So I woke him up and asked him again…and he said, no. So I rolled over and went back to sleep. After all, It was what I wanted to hear.

  4. No matter how many signs are there you will choose to overlook them. Because what you want and what you know to be true are two complete opposites. It’s completely normal for you to accept a lie to the face even though you know it to be false than look deeper. And then one day it hits you. Like a car crash. You know that all those signs and all those gut feelings.. You know they’re real.. You see them.. You begin to understand them.. But you still don’t take action. Because deep down you hope for change. Over and over you accept the lies. You need to build yourself up. Because this whole time the one ending to change is you. Change into a person strong enough to walk away. Strong enough to believe in yourself. Trust your gut. That is when you become free.

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