What Happens To the Ones Who Leave?

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  1. Ray says:

    Great post! I think all of us have/had IMMENSE amounts of ANGER toward our spouse. In my case, I was the one who left. I tried everything I could to save the marriage, to no avail. My anger was that my spouse didn’t lift a finger to try and stop me. She held the door open for me.

    I’m much happier now, and I actually think she is too. We’re civil toward each other (for the kids’ sake), but that’s the extent of our communication.

    Fine with me.

  2. Anonymous says:

    This is a great post and represents the goal I am seeking now. It has been too long since my wife of 15 years left. I recognize that my anger only hurts me, but continue to struggle to let it go. I am actively working on it though!

    • It’s a difficult thing to let go of. Even this morning, I found myself reflecting on the unfairness of the court-related stuff and my ex’s noncompliance and I started fuming again… Had to force myself to derail that train of thought!

      Keep working on it!

  3. Karan says:

    Great post…thanks!! It was just what I needed to hear today. I always marvel with thanksgiving at how just when I need something, a nugget of wisdom, a compassionate word, an understanding nod, it appears. Just the other day I was accused by my ex of “stalking” the OW……seriously?!?! Like I have time for that, let alone the immaturity that that involves. Hell, yes, I might THINK of all kinds of “stalking” to do…….but that is as far as it goes because I am a mature woman, not a high school freshman. But to be accused of something so petty tells me that there must be trouble in paradise…..oh, how I want that to be true.
    Maybe I am not the only woman that my ex lied to & cheated on???? Someone else out there saying things that may be true, but the OW doesn’t want to hear. I just say, “If he did it with you, he will do it to you”….yes, my faith is in Karma!!!!!

  4. TheFacets says:

    A painful read, but extremely illuminating and reinforcing of what I know is true. For me, the highlight is the fact that a narcissist is a narcissist; there is no amount of therapy we can put ourselves through that will cure the narcissist of his narcissism. We can simply be more attuned to that sort of personality with the goal of avoiding it in future relationships.
    Thank you for your transparency and honesty.

  5. Your voice seems to be definitely back. I wasn’t going to comment on this great post until you mentioned the fire ants–Cool!

  6. We can hear you…and thank you so much for voicing exactly what I was just thinking this morning… “Intimate betrayal and deception is one of the most acute pains that one can be subjected to. It’s a deliberate act (my note: even IF they say it wasn’t deliberate, it’s a level of cruelty that we can NOT understand nor do we wish to…), carried out by the one you trust the most, that leaves residual tenderness for a lifetime. And we desperately want someone, anyone, but especially the one responsible, to understand the depths and quality of that pain. We want them to feel it so that we can be understood and, in turn that they can know what devastation their actions have caused.”
    Their self-indulgence and false elevated view of themselves blinds them leaving it very unlikely that they’ll ever truly ‘get’ the level of severity they’ve accomplished.
    ***Hugs to you!***

  7. What a great insightful post (as usually expected!) 😉
    You have put into words, so eloquently, the feelings I have had of wanting to be understood and the residual feelings that betrayal leaves behind. I wish I didn’t have to interact with my ex (because of shared children) because he brings about those feelings much more easily when I have to be constantly bombarded with his self-centeredness and the fallout of it…but I’m getting better. Setting boundaries with him and myself has helped to start moving to the ‘indifferent’ side of things rather than the angry/bitter.

  8. Fill the car with fire ants!! Wow! I’m impressed!

  9. Ashley says:

    Reblogged this on ashtx and commented:
    “If he is a narcissist or sociopath, he is incapable of feeling guilt or remorse and most likely will never change. If he has compartmentalized his actions and his past to the point where he know longer remembers the truth, he will not feel pain but may continue to inflict it upon others. If he has spent so long living in a house of lies that he can no longer find the door, he will remain forever trapped.”

  10. So many wise words. I agree that perhaps it is different when there are children but I think your advice still holds true.

  11. Wonderful post! This is the very subject that I have been struggling with for the past year and a half. After a 33 year marriage my ex spouse hooked up with his old high school girlfriend on Facebook. I also found out through the divorce process that he had a gambling problem for 10 years and lost tons of money I didn’t know about. The feelings of betrayal and rejection are so intense that it’s hard to move on! Even after a year and a half of therapy, blogging and reading tons of divorce stories on the web; it’s just so hard to let it go! After reading your post it really encouraged me and another light bulb came on! I truly appreciate you taking the time to post this!

    • Karan says:

      Oh, Amelia,……how we have all been there. I was 15 when I first started dating my Ex. He left me for a younger co-worker after 38 years together. This was 3 years ago and our divorce was just finalized last month. It was a complete blindside…..the fog has been liftling. But it has been a painful process. The first year I was a crumbling, tearful , big fat mess…..the second year I realized that he had “run away ” and was not coming back…this past year I got my voice and started standing up for myself and fighting for my future. Everyone told me it just takes time….it was my faith, my family ( my children , ages 34 & 36, no longer have contact with their father) and my friends that have carried me when I needed it. Then I re-learned to trust in myself. My strength as a person is returning. Don’t give up on yourself. Don’t let the actions of another person define who you are, who you want to be. You will make it!!!!

    • Glad it helped:) It is not easy to heal from that depth of betrayal. Not easy, but possible. Hugs, lady:)

  12. Samantha says:

    How about the other woman? She was my best friend, practically a member of my family, and I met her when the kids and I joined a church where she was the children’s director and my kids’ Sunday school teacher. That’s her part time job. Her full time job is as a children’s missionary. A position in which she also worked with my daughter. She got fired from the church job when she refused to end her inappropriate relationship with my husband. My ex told me she was fired from both jobs due to her moral turpitude, but surprise, surprise, he lied. She is still a children’s missionary! Her behavior was a violation of the trust that her position carries. They’re locking themselves in the bedroom for “alone time” while my kids are there, awake and observant. They drink and curse in front of my kids (who are ages 5 and 7). How can she still have that job?

    • I am so sorry that you experienced the duel betrayal of a husband and a friend. Unfortunately, lots of people with questionable character hold positions of influence.

      Unless you are aware of illegal activity that impacts her work, focus more on her impact on your kids. Is it worth trying to get the courts to limit her contact with them?

  13. Alex says:

    Hi Lisa,

    I enjoyed reading your post but not all of us who leave are the (more) guilty party. My ex-husband was abusive to me and my daughter but I was the one who had to leave as his job was tied to the house we lived in.

    My daughter and I are now, thankfully, back in the former family home (which had been rented out) but it took a while to get here. During that time we have both gone through a lot of grief, sadness and anger whilst my ex still refuses to face up to the damage he has inflicted. Despite this, life is mostly good and I really do feel grateful for my new life.

    Blessings to you Lisa and all your readers.

    • So sorry you had to deal with this. I absolutely agree that there are situations where you have little choice but to leave. When there is abuse, often a sudden departure is the safest. Glad you’re on the other side now.

  14. unsinkablemollyx says:

    EXACTLY what I needed to read this today!!! I too share the thought that dwelling on the anger and injustice of it all and wishing them (him & his now-wife) ill-will does nothing for me but cause it to bounce back on me, which I do not want.

    The discard. The disrespect. The abandonment. The fact that he went from me to her just like that! If I do nothing else in my life from this moment on but dwell on these reasons for my anger, I will miss the rest of my life, and that’s sad…

    I know I am not angry anymore, not in the raging, crying, venting-24/7 kind of anger, I am still angry at him, his actions, his choices, but I am OK with that. I have accepted it- the whole rotten deal he dealt me, I’m OK. I don’t like him, I don’t wish him ill-will but know that Karma will come around to him and I will not rescue him this time.

    I have come to another conclusion that I am not longer willing to be the “rescuer”, the enabler to a man with family or mom-abandonment issues. I no longer want to take care of my partner/spouse unless in dire needs- that’s not what I am saying. I don’t want to have to support the household, be a single parent in a marriage, not have anyone take care of my emotional needs but expect me to take care of theirs.

    I’m not angry anymore. (deep breath) I don’t care either, but I can move forward now and know that there are brighter days ahead.

  15. Reblogged this on modular murphy and commented:
    This is a really great piece. Please take the time to read it and think about it. Unlike the author, I do have kids. Still, she is right on point with regard to what I’m feeling. I am still holding on to some anger. Today, Demi left me and the boys to run off to her paramour. No sign of hesitation or remorse. She’s trapped in the world she created, and can’t seem to find the door.

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