I woke up at 2:30 this morning, unable to go back to sleep. I do that sometimes.
I moved to the couch in my office, picked up my computer, and promptly began to research yoga and meditation retreats. You know, as one does in the middle of the night when slumber is elusive.
I feel like I have done pretty well taming my monkey mind, but I would love to test the premise of total immersion in the context of mindfulness. I think that my monkey would do well surrounded by tamed neural simians and trained synaptic handlers. I am drawn to the thought of spending a few days or even a week focusing only on my monkey’s well-being, far away from all the distractions that tend to catch his eye (yes, my monkey-mind is a him; I’m not sure why). Much like Cesar Millan uses his pack to train other dogs, I want to use tamed monkeys to guide my own.
I have done something similar once before. In the fall after July Disasster, I spent a long weekend at the Mandala Wellness Center for yoga, meditation, and therapy as a solo retreat. It was there that I found my breath again. It was there that I moved back into my body.
I am looking for something different now. I no longer need a personal retreat and I do not require the presence and attention of a therapist. Instead, this time I want to be in the presence of others who are on a similar journey. I want to share in the experience. I am no longer looking for healing, rather I am looking to make the good better.
There are many options nearby, but I cannot justify the price. Options overseas are cheaper, but the airfare is cost prohibitive. It seems as though the ready made options are out, but I am not giving up. I am going to see if I can cobble together my own total immersion experience on a budget. Without sleeping in my car outside an urban yoga studio, that is.
If anyone has any suggestions or knows of any wallet-friendly retreats, please let me or my monkey know:)
- Taming the Monkey Mind: Accepting the Way of the Monkey (lessonsfromtheendofamarriage.com)
- Taming the Monkey Mind: Halfway Point (lessonsfromtheendofamarriage.com)
- Taming the Monkey Mind: a 28 Day Meditation Challenge (lessonsfromtheendofamarriage.com)