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A “How to Thrive” Guide After Divorce

After Divorce: What Are You Grieving?

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Divorce is a type of death. The end of the life you had and the life you expected. And as with any death, grief follows closely behind. After divorce, which of these are you grieving?

 

Grieving the Person You Thought They Were

For some of us, divorce is preceded by a revelation that our partner was not the person we thought they were. In a moment, we realize that we have been in love with a mirage, a projection of our hopes and that behind this image was a person who perhaps was acting in very unloving ways.

It’s a particularly painful loss. Although the person is still breathing, the one you thought you were married to no longer exists. And maybe they never did.

Part of what makes this grief so complicated is that it’s often punctuated with moments of hope. Hope that maybe they will return to the person they were or become the person you believed them to be.

 

Grieving the Future You Imagined and Planned For

You believed you were going to grow old together. Go on that much-anticipated vacation, experience those milestones and enjoy a shared future. And now all of those planned-for, talked-about and dreamed-of events will not happen. At least not together.

And letting go of expectations is hard. Damned hard. Especially when you’ve made decisions and even sacrifices for that imagined future. It leaves a sense of unfairness and incompleteness, a story only partly told.

 

Grieving the Family and Life You Wanted For Your Children

Maybe you grew up with divorced parents and you promised yourself that you would provide a different experience for your own children. Or maybe you had close parents and wanted to provide the same for your offspring. Either way, few people would choose to give their kids the experience of growing up with divorced parents.

And so you grieve for them. Mourning the life you wanted them to have while worrying that this is going to cause them harm.

If this resonates with you, take a moment to learn about what kids can learn from divorce. There are silver linings here, I promise.

 

Grieving Who You Were Before the Relationship

Maybe you lost yourself during the relationship and you’re grieving who you were before. Or perhaps betrayal or abuse has fundamentally changed you and you’re forced to say goodbye to the person you were before that pain branded you.

Of course, we change and grow throughout life as we’re impacted by both people and experiences. Yet divorce, with its very distinct before and after, can highlight these changes in a profound and often painful way.

 

Grieving The Companionship and Shared History

You’ve been through so much together. Have so many shared experiences and inside jokes. And now it’s over. The house is empty. There’s no one to call when your shared show has a surprise moment. And you feel so alone.

Even if the marriage had soured and you no longer enjoyed time together, you may find that you still miss them simply being there.

 

Grieving the Lifestyle That Accompanied Your Marriage

Maybe you miss the evenings with the shared friends. Or going to the kids’ softball games as a family. Or the financial freedom that duel incomes and a joint household provided.

When the marriage ended, so did many of the day-to-day traditions, habits and events. And especially before you’ve established your new life, you’re going to feel that void left by their loss.

 

Grief after divorce is normal. Like with any grief, it does no good to try to rush through it or avoid it. The only way through is through. Acknowledge the losses. Mourn them. Honor them. Give them space. And then give yourself permission to let them go.

 

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12 thoughts on “After Divorce: What Are You Grieving?

  1. Not divorced – yet – but find myself mourning and grieving the wife I thought I knew and was so attracted to before her affair.
    Four-plus years later, I look across the.living room as I sit by myself on the couch and she sits in a recliner by herself in silence. She smiles, talks to the kids, hugs them, tells them she lives them, and we return to the same old disconnection. So lovely.
    Living on opposite ends of the house right now in an in-house separation trying our best to move on in life – we’re hoping someday that life can be together,. As each day drifts by, though, I am unsure and mourn and grieve our present and our potential future of a dead, lifeless marriage.
    Affairs are such a devastating choice for a spouse to make. My wife will never be able to understand the devastation she has caused in our family and especially to me, her imperfect but tender-hearted husband who always loved her so much even when our marriage wasn’t going well prior to her affair, and the husband who still loved her after the betrayal but whose heart, mind and soul have now withered and disconnected like she has over the past couple years.

    1. How did you survive an in-house separation? This is a real question, not sarcastic. My (eventually ex) husband and I are going to be doing that soon. As soon as we tell the kids. I can’t imagine how well it will work because I am the only one grieving the loss of the marriage, but it’s a similar situation of him having an affair.

      1. It’s tough knowing that you are in an in-house separation and it’s because of the other spouse. I am doing a lot of praying and reading and trying to use my time wisely. It isn’t easy, but I am giving this marriage of 25 years my everything and don’t want to look back with any regret. I am trying to be patient (it’s been over 4 years of counseling and lots of talking). Doing my best, that’s all I can say.
        Good luck in your situation. The in-house separation was something that was suggested to us a few years back from two different counselors and we only decided to finally try it in August.

    2. I can empathize with this so much, my husband devastated me and our family with his betrayal too. And I stood by him through so much. And wanted to keep fighting. I kept giving him options. He kept choosing destruction.

      I’m leaving.

  2. Nearly 30 years ago my former spouse left me and took our 26 month old child with her. It hurt. Along the way of grieving, I met a wonderful, caring person. To make a long story short, we celebrated our 26th wedding anniversary April 1st of this year. You never know what is around the corner of hurt. I thought I was happy years ago. That experience pales to what I hold in my heart now. I am a verrrrry lucky and blessed man. Truly thank G-d for miracles!

  3. Thanks for sharing! Very interesting post!

    I was reading a recent article and it mentioned…….Grieve over what was lost. You may miss the companion that you still love. Even if your relationship was miserable, you may grieve because you do not have the joy that you had hoped for in marriage. A passage in the Bible at Ecclesiastes 3:1,4 encourages us do not be ashamed to set aside “time to weep.”​

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