Sometimes You Just Need a Good Cry

I’ve been trying to hold it together.

Through the ramped-up demands of the end of school year.

Through the extra stress I carry home.

And the extra sleep that remains elusive.

I’ve been trying to hold it together.

To turn off “teacher” and turn on “wife.”

To make time for fun when all I really want is time to breathe.

To allow projects to sit unattended while I attend to the immediate.

I’ve been trying to hold it together.

When fears from the past whisper, “What if?”

And my mind starts its wondering.

And I’m so drained from making children “shush,” that I can’t get my own mind to.

I’ve been trying to hold it together.

When people innocently ask me what my plans are for the summer and all I can answer is, “Getting there.”

And a persistent foot injury prevents me from my usual outlet of running.

Or even doing yoga.

I’ve been trying to hold it together.

As I sit in meetings planning for the next year in the classroom. The year I thought I would be free.

As I wrestle with the decision to put energy where I am or energy where I want to go. Even though the doors remain closed.

As I contemplate trading my new savings for a new car, an exchange of security.

I’ve been trying to hold it together.

Until last night, when it all fell out in a wash of messy tears.

Pressure valve full-on open.

And tension released.

And now, I feel like I can hold it together again.

Thank you for sharing!

4 thoughts on “Sometimes You Just Need a Good Cry

  1. harikrishnamurthy – iNDEDRPURI, NEW DELHI India – a happy go lucky person by nature,committed to serve others and remove their sufferings through all possible help. POSTS IN MY BLOG ARE MY OWN OPINION, COLLECTIONS OF INTERESTING ARTICLES FROM FROM VARIOUS SOURCES. MY ONLY AIM IS TO SHARE GOOD THINGS WITH OTHERS WHICH MAY BE USEFUL TO OTHERS AND NOT TO HURT ANY ONE'S FEELINGS. If you like my blog, like me,follow me, share with others, reblog If you have some suggestions post comments your suggestions and comments are eagerly awaited
    harikrishnamurthy says:

    Reblogged this on My blog- K. Hariharan.

  2. Sacred Journey – Gerton, North Carolina – I write from the inspiration of the Divine in the beautiful Blue Ridge Mountains of Western North Carolina. It's hard not to be inspired by nature and her beauty. It's impossible not to notice the love that's right in front of us each day. I write because I must. It has become a direct channel from Spirit. I thank you for stopping by and joining me in these words.
    momentswithmillie says:

    So deeply poignant, raw and honest. Thank you for sharing your soul here. Mucho love to you. Glad you finally let go and released it.

      1. Sacred Journey – Gerton, North Carolina – I write from the inspiration of the Divine in the beautiful Blue Ridge Mountains of Western North Carolina. It's hard not to be inspired by nature and her beauty. It's impossible not to notice the love that's right in front of us each day. I write because I must. It has become a direct channel from Spirit. I thank you for stopping by and joining me in these words.
        momentswithmillie says:

        Absolutely. It’s imperative for the soul to release. Sending a huge hug. You are doing great!

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