I Feel Alone

On the day I met my soon-to-be-ex husband in court, I was asked by the judge to wait in the hallway while she and attorneys consulted with my husband. I have never felt so alone. I sat trembling on that austere bench in that impersonal hall with tears streaming down my face. My past was…

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I Feel Sad

Divorce is a death of a marriage. A death of the future. A death of your present. And, in some cases, a death of the past you thought you had. Like any death, there is an intense sense of loss. Of mourning. I remember feeling the aching void left behind by his absence. I worried…

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I Feel Angry

The journal I kept in those early months after he left is warped and torn. Not from age. But from the force of my pen. I wasn’t angry. I was furious. Nothing about the situation was okay. Nothing was fair. And I wanted him to pay.     If you are fuming at the actions…

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I Feel Scared

Until my divorce, I thought I had a plan for my life. I thought I had a loving husband. I thought I had a savings account. I thought I knew my future. And then, with one text, it was all gone. And in some ways, it was the most freeing moment of my life. Because…

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I Feel Stuck

“Why can’t I be healed already!” I cried in frustration as I (over)reacted to yet another trigger. We often expect healing to occur on our timeline. We seek to control the process and provide a deadline for the outcome. But healing doesn’t work that way. It’s two steps forward. One step back. And then a…

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I Feel Hopeless

Discouraging doesn’t even come close. So many days, it just feels impossible. There is so much to do. So much to rebuild. And you just have nothing left. No energy. No money. No time. But those are just excuses talking. The fear of letting go holding you back. I know. I’ve been there. The best…

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