Turn Away

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  1. Katie says:

    “Anger is simply pain screaming to be heard.” This is so true. Thank you for articulating this for me.

  2. Meg says:

    Thank you for not turning away. You are one of the first people who reached out to me…I will forever be grateful 🙂

  3. movingliquid says:

    Having experienced infidelity for the first time in my life it’s a club I don’t want to belong to, yet I will forever have compassion now for people who have been cheated on because it’s a pain that can barely be described. I appreciate knowing that I will live through it.

  4. To be with that anger and go through that anger is necessary to move forward. Thank you for not scrubbing and polishing. If someone didn’t get angry I would be worried. Betrayal is devastating.

  5. For some time I have been focussing on the healing perspective of living by my values; rather than analyzing the actions of my husband, the pain, and my feelings of anger and despair. The interesting thing is, some time passed before I allowed that ‘healing’ phase to begin. I believe now that it would be impossible to begin that on day 1.
    I have read divorce books spouting ‘quick-and-easy’ methods for curing the pain of divorce (or betrayal). They begin their marketing with phrases like ‘if you have tried a, b or c method and you are still stuck in pain, try our super-sonic method and be healed in 21 days’ (or some other ludicrous time period). What they fail to say is that for their method to work, you actually need to have tried all the other methods (a, b, c) first. Most importantly, you have to go through the pain before you can begin to heal.
    In the beginning (when in pain) it was comforting to read posts from people as yourself who were ‘on the other side’ yet never too afraid to admit the dark days in the beginning.
    Thank you for that honest perspective.

    • Quick and easy? Don’t I wish! No such thing. Just gotta face it and deal with it a little at a time. And, you’re so right that the deeper work of healing can’t happen while the anger is so intense.

  6. momfawn says:

    Been there, done that. Very powerful words. Intense anger coupled with incredible pain can be a very ugly thing. Letting go of both is ultimately necessary to survive with one’s self intact. – Fawn

  7. Hangs head, shudders. Slowly pulls on string attached to top of head in hopes head will lift up. Knows it will, along with shoulders eventually straightening and back lifting.

    Thank you.

  8. I know I have written those nasty, bitter, anger-filled letters (here and elsewhere). Mostly, I’m past it. I need to stress *mostly* because it still rears its ugly head from time to time. But it doesn’t stay as long as it used to. I’m still nowhere near forgiveness but I’m certainly moving towards a better place.

    Sadly though, I continue to wonder if I will ever fully trust again? To be betrayed in that manner, it’s a shattering that is beyond words (or screams, as I’ve discovered).

    Be well.

    • It is shattering. Life changing. Soul changing. I think you can trust again but you’ll find that trust is different.

      Those nasty, bitter, angry letters have their place. You have to purge that stuff. And there is such a need for the pain to be acknowledged.

      So glad to hear that you’re doing better:) Just keep up those baby steps!

  9. Sam says:

    I am still very angry. I’m angry by the betrayals of my husband and my best friend. I’m angry that he calls me crazy for being so sad and angry. I’m angry that she is still a children’s missionary even though she “stole” the father of the children she works with and witnesses to. I’m angry that I put up with the job hopping, drinking, criticizing, financial stress, and emotional abuse just to be repaid with this. I’m angry that she uses everything I told her in the confidence of our friendship against me. I want to be shiny and polished on the other side, but I’m so not there yet. At least I’m not crying. I prefer anger to sadness. It’ll return as grief is not a linear process, but perhaps the bouts will be fewer and farther between.

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