So much of it comes down to courage, doesn’t it?


The text from my ex husband read, “I’m sorry to be such a coward leaving you this way.”

That sentence contained the only truth he uttered.

He was a coward, choosing to hide his actions behind lies and then disappear without a conversation.

He was a coward, letting his fears keep him from asking for help or revealing his thoughts.

He was a coward.

But you know what?

So was I.

I never lied.

I never hid my actions.

But I still listened to fear and let it wrap me in its binds.

I was afraid of confrontation. In fact, one of the aspects of my first marriage that I enjoyed is that we rarely ever had confrontation. No wonder. He would lie and I would avoid.

I preferred to avoid anything ugly rather than face it head on. This made me all-too-willing to believe what he told me (Although, in my defense, nobody else knew he was lying either. He was damn good.).

I was so afraid of losing him that I was too cowardly to even consider it becoming a reality.

As though by not looking under the bed, the monster didn’t exist.

Perhaps the greatest gift I received from the end of the marriage was the gift of courage. It wasn’t unlike the journey the lion took to the great wizard of Oz. The cowardly one learned the wizard was an illusion but that courage could be built from within (with a little help from a liquid placebo). And that simply by tackling the journey (with the help of a few friends, of course), he found the bravery he always had and learned that it was characterized by action even in the face of fear.

Courage doesn’t mean you don’t hear fear. It means you don’t listen to everything it was to say.

Courage doesn’t mean that you’re immune to fear. It means it doesn’t paralyze you.

Courage doesn’t mean that you never doubt. It means that you trust yourself enough to make it through.


There were obviously many characteristics I considered critical in a second husband.

But one of the most important qualities I looked for was courage.

I needed to know that he would face any potential problems rather than hide.

I needed to know that he would speak the truth even if it was difficult.

And I needed to know that I could do the same.


So much comes down to courage.

The courage to see the truth.

The courage to speak the truth.

The courage to trust the truth.

The courage to face the truth.

And to know that it will be okay.

Even if you’re scared.




Thank you for sharing!

8 thoughts on “Courage

  1. Your post is so true…my husband of 34 years didn’t have a conversation with me-he just went and filed for divorce and told me 3 weeks later. I didn’t want to know, I didn’t like conflict or confrontation and lived like an ostrich with my head in the sand thinking things were okay, not great, but I would have liked to have a conversation and feel like I was worth a discussion…So now as I’m about to turn 59, I’m starting all over which is quite scary but I’m finding my courage and realizing he was the coward and I would never have done that to him. After 8 months on the divorce road I’m finally over the feeling there’s something wrong with me and I am not going to let his actions make me feel unworthy. Each day I am getting more courageous and am trying to figure out what my true purpose is. Therapy, your blog your and book have helped me. Thanks!

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  2. Let's CUT the Crap! – Canada – I'm getting a little LONG in the tooth and have things to say about---ouch---AGEing. I believe it's certainly a state of mind but sometimes it's nice to hear that you're NORMAL. I enjoy reading by the truckload. I'm a grandma but I don't feel OLD although I'm not so young anymore. My plan is to stick it out as long as I can on this lovely planet and only will leave it kicking and screaming!
    Let's CUT the Crap! says:

    I agree 😀

  3. They say timing is everything. Wow! I am still searching for the courage I lost to him so many years ago. I am still searching for the person I used to be. I am not sure of myself or anything anymore and it’s very unsettling.

  4. This so much sounds like my marriage ending, except he didn’t leave a note. Slowly I am standing up. You help, I am grateful.

  5. socalbritters – I'm a 26 year old nursing student from Southern California. I'm a (somewhat) happily divorced and a proud auntie. I am a Disney FANatic and lover of all things blue, in a book or having to do with my family.
    socalbritters says:

    I think one of the things I am most proud of after surviving a tsunami divorce is the courage I gained from the situation. The ability to hold my head high in situations I would have previously run from still astounds me. I was like you in that I avoided confrontation and thought that it made things better between us. Thank you for this post; it reminds me what I’ve gained.

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