I Leave You With…
The wedding is just a few short days away.
We won’t be stopped by the government shutdown (even though we have had to create a backup plan to the original national park location). Nor will tropical storm Karen put a damper on our plans even if she makes us damp (here’s the one time I’m not happy about wedding dresses being white!).
As we all know, those are little things, speed bumps, but not stop signs.
We have been through much more stringent challenges to get here.
And now we’re ready.
I tried on my dress the other night for the first time since I bought it a year ago. The sight made the upcoming marriage feel real. Tangible. I looked at my reflection and reflected on the last time I wore white, 14 years ago. I am no longer that woman. I am more awake, mindful of all that is. I am more aware of both the good and the potential for pain. I am more grateful for everything after losing everything. And, dare I say it, I am more excited. My first marriage felt like the inevitable conclusion to a good relationship. This marriage feels like a hard-won victory after years of facing struggle. The triumph of love over loss. Trust over betrayal. And peace over pain.
And that’s something to celebrate.
And celebrate I shall. I will be taking a hiatus from the blog and its associated platforms for the next week or so. I want to focus on my new husband. My family. And my friends.
And maybe even sneak in a nap:)
I want to spend a week celebrating where I am with no thought as to how I got here.
Even though this is certainly a case where the ends justify the means.
I’m not locking the door of the blog; please feel free to poke around and maybe even stay for awhile. There are well over 600 hundred posts here, so there’s no need to get bored:)
Please keep commenting and sharing. I’ll pick up when I get back.
But I also want to leave you with something.
Hope that no matter how bad the pain is now, it can get better.
Hope that no matter how much you have lost, you can regain even more.
Hope that no matter how piercing the betrayal, you can learn how to trust again.
Hope that breaks heal and make you stronger than before.
Hope that you can build a new family and a new life.
Hope that you are not damaged beyond repair and that you can love and be loved.
Hope that you can be happy. Really and truly happy.
Your happy ending may look different than mine.
But picture the happy ending you want. The finish line that says you’ve completed your divorce journey.
And then walk towards it. One step at a time.
See you all soon:)