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  1. Thank you for sharing.
    Just knowing that the pain of today doesn’t mean there won’t be a happy tomorrow brings so much hope.
    Because in the midst of the sadness it’s hard to envision that there could be so much joy there.
    The fact that we don’t have be forever trapped in the midst of trauma and can move on to a better place affords the opportunity to reach for something bigger.
    Thank you !!!
    Sometimes it’s very hard to see through the clouded vision of tears.

  2. Susan says:

    Sending you an understanding hug, along with wishes for a better day. You have helped me get through some rough days. Peace.
    In admiration,

  3. I am so sorry to read about your pain. Not just because of the affect it had on you, but I worry about facing my soon-to-be-ex after I move out. We have kids together. Granted the trauma is no where near what you’ve been through, but I feel your pain and anticipate I’ll experience the same. Hang in there! It seems you have completed the final step. (Let’s hope!)

  4. still learning to trust says:

    Peace Lisa, I wish you peace. I can relate, sadly. He is now in another state and I am ELATED! I am thrilled to know that I can move freely around Chicago and the suburbs without checking license plates. I even went so far as to change MYlicense plates so that he couln’t find me. I can breathe freely as he is out of my state ~ doesn’t make sense though as I, like you, did nothing wrong…..we were betrayed and walked out on. Thankfully God sent you Brock and you accepted, I still just have my trusty dog! Peace.

  5. Wow it sounds like you had a jarring day. My ex-husband does not live in the same town as I do, but much of his family does. I saw his sister and aunt several months ago at a resturant, his sister told me their mother had actually passed away a few days prior. It was strange seeing them, they were my family once and now their not. I hope to God I never see my ex.

  6. cathmae says:

    Trauma. So very cruel.
    You have survived harder things. I think that gives strength to many people who read your blog, and I hope it gives you strength now too. Sending healing energy to you, your man and your dog. 🙂

  7. blogventer says:

    You are so much better equipped to deal with it this time. You know what to expect, and you know that he can’t hurt you. (Still think you should call the police and let them know his whereabouts. Do you still have contacts in the department?) Hugs. You are STRONG now. You can do this.

    • Two reasons I didn’t bother with the police: 1) The warrant is from another state. I can’t see them transporting across state lines for bigamy. Even I don’t want my tax dollars spent on that! 2) I have had to take an all or none approach. I was aggressive with the system during the divorce. When it was final, I let him go. In every way. If I continue to try to be his bounty hunter, it keeps me mired in the past. I’d rather spend my energy living for me instead of trying to destroy him. Besides, I’ll bet he ends up doing an okay job of it himself:)

  8. Robin Austin says:

    Really not looking forward to seeing my ex again any time soon… unfortunately, I know it will eventually happen. We live less than a mile from each other. On a small island. I think you summed up the way I felt at the beginning of the end as well, when he was familiar, yet unknown. I imagine hugging him (wanting to be amicable) but not wanting to, knowing he will smell and feel different. I am sooooooooo waiting on my Brock. 🙂

    • Robin Austin says:

      ….and then I ran into him at the gas station less than 30 minutes after I wrote that. (Kept on walking though… didn’t stop, and don’t know if he saw me or not)

      • stilllearning2b says:

        Wow. What a wild coincidence! How are you feeling?

        • Robin Austin says:

          ANXIOUS! And I don’t know why. No reason to be. So I did what I always do when I don’t know what to do with my emotions. I came home and started cleaning something.

          • stilllearning2b says:

            I’m not surprised- our bodies don’t know what to do after a break up. Cleaning is a good outlet. On the positive side, each time you see him it will probably get a little easier.

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