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Lame Duck Marriage

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  1. I resemble this.

  2. Christine says:

    Lisa, Great book. I just finished reading and could relate to many of your husband’s characteristics. This past summer, I had my own adventure into deceit as my husband was caught (by me) attaining prostitutes and telling a multitude of lies. Although I am still in my marriage, I was awoken to how very uncareful women can be. (The second wife traveled with him after he took out a life insurance policy on her and was caught practcing her name????) You are strong; I am not. With a young daughter, I am not sure I can make it out of this marriage. I did learn, however, that my husband will not stop lying. It is simply ingrained in him. As I contemplate these facts, I am disheartened about what an undertaking this may be. Oh, I am also very curious about who exactly (name) your ex is and who the new wife is too! My Google searches have been unsuccessful. It is curious how you managed to hide his identity, especially since he was arrested. My best to you.

    • You are stronger than you realize. Often the biggest lie we tell ourselves is “I can’t.” But we are capable of so much if we can learn to release the fear and take the first step. Sometimes it best to look at only a piece of the journey at a time when the entire undertaking is too difficult to contemplate.

      As for his identity, my post “Who Is He?” discusses why I have chosen not to reveal his name. As for searches, I simply changed the names of everyone other than myself and I changed the location of his wedding and subsequent arrest.

      Thanks for stopping by and sharing:) I wish you the best.

      Lisa

  3. Treadin says:

    Lame duck marriage! What a great way to put it! My nine-year-old marriage is there right now. I feel like I’ve been treading water for a couple years now, waiting for something to change. (Eventually… something always does!)

    I guess I imagined either something horrible and definitive would wind up bringing it all to a head, or somehow it would all begin to turn around. What I think really happened is that I got tired. Now I’m doing the dead-man-float, I guess.

    I have no more will to roll up my sleeves and get in there and head-on tackle it all. I can’t bring myself to read any more marriage books or websites or hire any more babysitters so we can look awkwardly at everything but each other and make small talk…. I can’t bring myself to try to pretend I enjoy sex with him, either! So I think now we’re *both* just waiting for something to change. It IS oddly freeing. I plow ahead with my life, my education, my plans– some long-deferred, begin to seriously imagine a future that’s less US and more HIM and ME, separate people, you know, maybe even with separate homes and bank accounts.

    Who knows, maybe that’ll actually turn out be just the ticket. Weirder things have certainly happened. I think that’s why I’ve come to resent “marriage books” so much– they can’t account for the “X factor!”

    Your story is so fascinating! I can’t imagine what must have gone through your ex’s mind when he went down this crazy path. Affairs/divorce/remarriages are common as dandelions anymore– hardly anyone judges them all that harshly, even in my backwards little social circle, provided you stick with the new squeeze for more than a few years. So it seems to me like it couldn’t have entirely been social stigma keeping him from playing it more-or-less above-board.

    I wonder if he must have still loved you, in his way, to try to keep all the plates spinning convincingly! but how insanely exhausting.

    Glad things have worked out well for you!

    • I’m glad the analogy hit home for you although I am sorry to hear that you are in that place. I’m glad to hear that you are moving ahead with your dreams:)

      Social stigma – that’s an interesting one! Obviously, I have spent quite a bit of time wondering “why,” but that one never even crossed my mind. Of course, the social stigma of bigamy is even worse:)

  4. Treadin says:

    Right! ha! That didn’t work out for him at all. What a risky play!

    So strange to try to get into his head. I mean, plenty of people just get bored or depressed with their marriages and have affairs. They don’t end their marriages because… well, finances or extended family or kids or maybe they even still at least like their spouses and are just looking to scratch an itch for awhile! Or the affair even becomes a soft place to land while the marriage winds down.

    But taking it as far as bigamy! That takes some crazyass dedication. How long did he ever think it could last?

    I can’t imagine what it must have been like for you, to go from “loving husband” to WTFFFFF???????

    Anyway, past is past! Glad you found a good guy and are flourishing now. That’s the happy ending the whole story needed.

    • I don’t think he was thinking. I think he was very lost and very broken. It’s taken me a long time to release the anger enough to see that, but it feels right. In the end, I’ll never know.

      And, yes, past is past and I love my present:)

      Thanks!

  5. Jasper says:

    There is no period in a marriage that is analogous to Nov-Jan for a retiring Senator. If you’re going to compare marriage to a government role it would have to be that of a Supreme Court justice. A lifetime appointment. And even that is an awkward analogy. Marriage is a commitment between two people to co-pilot a life together (and often a family together). Rather than rationalizing and justifying the dissolution of marriages, let’s talk about what marriage means (commitment, communication, compassion) and teach people to go into it with their eyes wide open. Fewer people would get married in the first place and fewer children would be traumatized by the breakups of their families over which they had zero control or say. What a legacy of pain we’re perpetrating on the next generation.

  1. April 1, 2014

    […] And I thought about my friend. He lived in marriage limbo for a long time. He was married, yet in the most important ways, had no wife. They orbited around each other with little chance of connection. And when they did connect, it was ugly. The divorce, in many ways, was a relief. An untethering to a lame duck marriage. […]

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