Try shifting your mind: instead of thinking of your trauma as something that happened TO you, try thinking of it as a part of your story. When it is your story, you are the one in control. You can revise, edit, even add or eliminate entire chapters if needed. Here are some hints on how you can learn to embrace your story and use it to help yourself and others.
You can definitely see your skills within the paintings you write. The arena hopes for more passionate writers such as you who aren’t afraid to say how they believe. Always follow your heart.